Accepting My Weaknesses

I'd like to throw out a plea for help regarding my blog header.  How do I get the picture to spread across the header area?  I have done this once before but my brain cannot find where it stored the info.

I would be very happy to have assistance to figure the above situation out. Thank you in advance.

As for today...well...the kids are all back in school.  My youngest has preschool at 8:30 a.m. and I highly doubt he will arrive on time.  There is a reason why afternoon preschool always worked for me.

I am stealing a friend's idea and decided to start keeping track of my moods.  I have a sneaking suspicion that I am like many others out there that fall off the range of "normal" once in awhile and I want to know if it has anything to do with the beginning of my menopause journey and what the doctor has put me on for such.

Yes I'm turning a whopping 38 and menopause and I are becoming friends already.

It is just the beginning of the midlife journey but my doctor feels it does not hurt to be prepared for what is going to come.

So I will track my moods and where I am at in the month...follow the moon sort of thing... and find out if I am in need of more meds to stabilize.

And this is where I feel like damaged goods.

I have been through Infertility and the death of my Mom and have never been on any sort of drug to help me through day to day functions.   I am now at a point in my life where I am thinking for my children's best interest maybe I need to consider this option.

Everybody has ups and downs...EVERYBODY experiences bad moods.  I get that, but I feel like a such a failure when I let my emotions get me down down down down...get the point?  FAILURE  I really dislike that word. 

One thing I must do is start to accept that I sometimes cannot take control of everything.  I know that but to actually follow the actions of my attitude {Proverbs 3} is another story.

So when I say this year is about ME it is more about just relaxing and taking care of myself...it's about acknowledging that I am just me...I am not in control but CAN make choices for myself that will enhance, improve, and develop my life so those that I care about {my children} will not be damaged by my weaknesses.

I also realize that honesty is huge here and I do not have a problem sharing **smiles**.  I just need to learn what to share and how to share it.

Therapy session over for today.  Have a good one...I have a busy one.