Happy New Year - It's All About Me

Do you make New Year's Resolutions? 

I usually throw something out there in my mind that I'd like to change.  It's usually something to do with my health or weight.  I have wanted to have a more disciplined lifestyle, read  more classic books and so on.

Truly nothing exciting.

This year is different.  Maybe what's on my list will not be exciting for you to read but I do feel excitement of the challenge I have set before me for 2012.

This year is about me.

Yes...me.

This year I plan on looking at the ugly things about myself and working on them.  This past month has been awful...... emotionally and in turn physically.  I wish I could share some things but you can't understand most of it without knowing the petty stuff and I have decided not to share that anymore.

I am so blessed to have a some very good GREAT friends who have given me the time and acceptance to release what is bothering me.  I can never thank them enough for listening and encouraging me. 

My sisters have also been there with their wise advice and knowing they are there no matter what is enough for me.

So this year...with the encouragement and advice I have received from my husband, family and friends I am going to work on me.

I am going to give myself time without feeling guilty.

I am going to take baby steps.

I am going to feed myself full of the good stuff and stay away from the negative until I feel like I can take it and then throw it away.

I am going to keep hearing the words of those that love me and shut out the ugly words of those that could care less if I exist.

I am going to give my time to those that need me.  I need to be needed.  That makes me happy.... helping, listening, nuturing, anything I can to help.

I am going to find time to relax.

I am going to find time to sleep.

I am going to try to turn the guilt I feel for time out for myself into something else.

I know I do not need much.  I ask my husband for an hour during the day to find some quiet and use my time wisely and it helps to regain my sanity before I jump back in the parenting trenches.  I don't do this everyday but when he is working alot I try to get a snippet of time.

Bare with me while I travel this journey...it may not be your thing to read about what inspires me to be happy and peaceful but the alternative to this is not alot of enjoyable reading either.

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!

Wordless Wednesday - The Rink 2011-12

Every year our rink gets bigger and better.

I love how my husband lighted up the skating are this year.

That means more hours to skate.

Linking up with Wordless Wednesday over at 5 Minutes For Mom.

I Am Still Here

Remember me?  The writer of this blog.  Yes, I have totally been neglecting my duties as a blog owner.  Truth be told I am suffering some sort of seasonal depression.

This morning I read a few blog posts that helped flip my mind around.  I woke this morning not feeling so great mentally and I am still battling physical illness...but life goes on.

I guess that's the message today.  Life goes on.

Life goes on not matter what you are feeling.

Life goes on even though your sick.

Life goes on even though people are hurting and starving in this world.

Life goes on even when someone doesn't like you.

Life goes on even when someone is gone from this Earth.

Yes, life goes on though the aches and pains of everyday living. 

Guess I should find my happy face and move on too.

Quotable Mondays - Yup, My Feelings Exactly.....

You have a freak flag. 

You just don't fly it.

 - Ben Stone "The Family Stone"

Hunting Buddies

This was an exciting moment for our son. 

He was with Dad when he shot this buck a few weeks ago.

Linking up with 5 Minutes Of Mom & Wordless Wednesday.

The Gift of Time

Anyone else find the Christmas Spirit? 

I am so lucky to have some friends online that do cheer me up with their Holiday excitement, but otherwise I am Grumpy Gus.

Yesterday I took my Granny to do her Christmas shopping and to be honest I expected the uglies to come out in people.  I was surprised to find many people laughing along and apologizing with me as we bumped butts in the aisles.  Literally one lady and I bent and bumped our butts at the same time....we laughed!  I was on the Barbie aisle in a local store and said out loud "Barbie's not on sale so this gals outta here!".  A lady laughed and said "Me too!".

My Granny is a brave soul and really wanted to go to the dollar store in our mall.  This store is so hard to maneuver in but you should have seen my Granny with her red shopping cart.  I wanted to run ahead of her and wave flags and warn people that she was coming through.

Though I did not accomplish what I needed to do in the city it felt good that I could provide her with the gift of time.  My Granny does not want us to give her gifts, she just wants us to visit and come by often.  We do visit but sometimes life gets in the way and hockey and other activities get in the way.  When we are ill we must stay away too.

I think the best way to get the grumpies away was for me to do this.  I was sporting a huge migraine headache too but it was worth it....so worth it.

Quotable Mondays

 In other words we realized that the unconditional love
 we thought we always had was actually very conditional love because
our mouths said one thing but our actions said something else.

~ Jayne

I do not know if the name of the person quoted is correct because of the source  BUT....this quote did come from Single Dad Laughing in this post. 

If you are interested in reading the very first post that is causing all the commotion and in my eyes is INCREDIBLE insight then please click on this link to
"I'm Christian, unless Your Gay."

Wordless Wednesday - Friday Afternoon Knitting Club

Monkey See, Monkey Do!

Linking up with 5 Minutes For Mom & Wordless Wednesday.

Quotable Monday

The best of all gifts around any Christmas tree: 

the presence of a happy family all wrapped up in each other. 

~Burton Hillis

The Working Man

I was reading Gayle's blog this morning and was reminded once again how much she appreciates how hard her husband works.  I was brought up a farmer's daughter married a trucker and have seen how many men in my life have provided with the use of their strong hands.

When I listen to this I think of my Dad, Grandpa, Father In Law, and Husband.  Thank you to all of them for providing this wonderful life we have.

For you too Gayle!

Smiling

Today is a new day!  We had some hiccups this morning but we got through them and today we are smiling.

The Christmas music is blaring...my three year old is home with me so I am not alone and we are enjoying each other's company.

I must finish the decorations and move onto Christmas cards.

There will always be to much on my to do list but today I shall face it with a smile and some get up and go.  I think we may even see some sunshine today!!!!