Not sure where to go with the emotions today. The day my twins go off to school has finally arrived. To be
honest one moment I am giddy with joy, anticipating fun things to do with just Gage, a cleaner house for most of the day which means less work for me, and the quiet for a little bit. I know I will miss their noisy bodies but a Mama needs her quiet time once in awhile.
Enough about me...the twins are excited and
more than ready for this. They attended an all day every day French Summer Camp a few weeks ago and LOVED it. They did not want it to end.
I woke up at 4:30 {not on my own a 2 year old had a lot to do with it}, settled him in bed beside the 5 year old that is between my husband and I {don't judge, sometimes it's easier to have them crash with you for a few hours so they get some sleep} and then I was awake. Awake with
nerves for the two of them as they go off today without my protection!
GASP!!!!!!!!!
I do not have fear with the academics of school, nor the social aspect...my kids can hold their own. I fear for the bus ride and playground activities. Yes, I am one of those moms!!!
I know my anxiety will
settle the moment I see them playing on the playground equipment. When they rush off the bus today and tell me all about their day. I KNOW it will be okay.
I have done this before with our now 8 year old....what's my problem?
I think it's because these two are different. My oldest marches in a room and just
deals with what is coming to him. These two are emotional, or at least my daughter is. I really have no worries of my son, I worry more for the teacher in his case.
Maybe it's because they are twins. Everything doubles....especially my emotions {good or bad}.
I am excited for them and excited for Gage and I to have some time
together for a full day. I usually do not mourn the fact that they are growing. I am one to look at the exciting changes happening and how they are loving every minute of growing up. I cannot go back in the past and change anything, but I can sit and listen to their stories of how we used to hold them when they were babies {of course they only know this because of pictures}.
I
must tuck my nervous emotions back in, pray for safety on the way to school, and remember to take pictures!!!!!
Now I'm off to make three lunches instead of one, gather three backpacks, shoes, and jackets instead of just one of each. I promised them a special breakfast of pancakes and treats they love for that very first day. Our oldest is
excited too because he loves to be in charge and today we asked him to help the kids with the bus ride and getting them to their teacher when they arrive.
Another
milestone in the bag.
Pictures to come.