I Can Be Annoying

I know myself enough to know these things...

1. I'm loud.

2. I like to talk, chit chat, shoot the breeze...you get the point.

3. I know I need to learn to shut up.

4. I am definitely not a loner.

5. I like to keep busy and the busier I am the more I get done.

6. I do not work well under pressure nor do I get any thrill from that feeling.

7. I adore people...

good people, people that do more for others than they do for themselves....

I simply adore hearing their stories or spending time with them.

I know many other things too but the points I made above are some qualities in myself that I know drive some other people bananas.  I am learning to come to terms with that.  Though I can learn to downgrade the chatter I truly could never quit being so talkative, it's who I am.

There is a point a person needs to embrace these qualities in themselves that maybe are not fully accepted by others and move on.  I am not there yet.  I'll leave a group gathering and be sooooo embarrassed by something I said or did.  That feeling just does not leave right away.  I usually get a little sad over it and worry that I offended someone or a certain individual doesn't care to spend anymore time within the space I may be occupying in the universe {might I say it's usually a happy place}.

But then....there are those times you go out on a limb and you know your supposed to open your mouth.  You know that you are supposed to go out there and say the words or be in that space.   It's never a comfortable feeling but instead your heart is beating faster and you just know....so you do it...you say what's on your mind. 

Many times there is no return from those words that you were scared to say BUT you end up seeing the blessings because you chose to speak directly from the heart.