And Then It's Here....

Every year around the first week in October I start to think of the Christmas season.   I am not one that goes crazy with gifts in dollar amounts but I do enjoy giving gifts.  I often prepare homemade jam, squares, bread and other goodies to give out to friends, family and neighbors.  I enjoy the season for just that....harmony with others. A slow down enjoy family, remember traditions that are gone with loved ones that have passed on, and generally just slowing down time.  A break from school, hockey, work and many other things that just fill up our days.  I usually have all the gifts purchased early and usually online so I do not have to be in the stores during the rush.

Why today on the eve of December am I so darn cranky?  I love this season and the reason of why we celebrate.  Am I the only one that can cry listening to "O' Holy Night"?

Today as I grumbled putting up the decorations I put on Christmas music to get me in the mood.  That did not work so I read a beautiful story of Jesus's birth to the youngest three while we set up our nativity, and yet I still am a grump.  So disappointed in myself.

I have a busy weekend ahead and next week my husband is gone once again for training.  I LOVE that he is receiving this training, I LOVE that he loves his challenging job, I LOVE that he gets paid for the week BUT...I do miss his help and companionship when he is gone.

Maybe that's what it is..maybe it's because the sun has yet to shine this week...maybe I am PMS'ing.  I don't know.  What I do know is I need to suck it up and put a smile on this face and find some Christmas cheer.