Used & Abused

Can I scream?

I seriously need to scream, have a rant, dance like a monkey...anything to relieve some frustration and stress. 

I need to make some serious adjustments in my home in regards to my children's attitudes. 

First of all I will take 100% full responsibility for their whining and complaining.  I am their parent and somehow we got ourselves into this mess.

On the other hand I realize they are all individuals and each has specifics in their personality.  I need to parent each child in a slightly different way but not waver off too far from what our family knows as a norm otherwise we hear ".....but so and so gets to do that why don't I?"

My five year olds are giving me the biggest headache right now.  They are intense bundles of energy and being twins you get served that energy in double doses.  EXHAUSTING!!!

I have begun to separate them for small portions of time when they are home.  They "think" they need to always be beside each other yet they DRIVE each other up the wall...then a fight starts and let me tell you Mama is not happy about the hitting going on in this house. 

I need to also find a discipline for each of them.  They all have a different currency and that seems to change as they grow.  As of lastnight all of the children were stripped of every luxury they know and were told of harsh discipline if they have the usual fit in any specific situation.  Suck it up buttercup you cannot have a tantrum because I only read you one book!  Yes we are dealing with stuff like that.

My goal like any other parent is to raise well rounded, kind, caring, but yet strong adults.  Not the opposite.   I believe a foundation starts now when they are young.  We will however leave the two year old out of this equation for now.

HE IS A WHOLE OTHER POST!

He is like no other child in this family.  I could go on and on but I do believe he is one of the key ingredients for the chaos I head into every night before bed.  My children know the rules, they know how to follow rules but throw in the two year old that has to push every button and you got a war!!!

So  needed to vent and vent I did.  I do hope I am not the only Mom out there feeling used and abused lately.  I encourage my children to do things on their own but I also know they need me yet for many tasks.  Most days I can handle it but then there was yesterday.  What can I say?  I fell of the "keep it together" boat and I am sinking in the shark infested waters of guilt and conviction.