Yesterday's quote....simple but so true.  I never believed those that said life just gets better as you receive wisdom.  I knew life experience would change me.  Life experience such as travelling or trauma, missions or marriage, or the many other "big" things that happen to people.  I never thought life experience from just living could create wisdom, spiritual growth and so much more.

I know people who are mean, just plain old mean.  These people want things their way and if you cannot provide this to them then you are not worthy to be on the same patch of dirt they are standing upon.  They can be fake, dishonest, manipulative and have values that are shallow.

This is all from my point of view of course.  From their point of view I am scum so I guess we can call it even.

My point is we all know people like this, mean people.

Yesterday's quote talks to all of us.  It does take courage to change.  View the world differently.  Try a little harder, come out of our shell.

I feel like I have been working on this specific task a VERY long time.  In my thirties, since becoming a mother I have realized that this change within me cannot be for the happiness of others...but for myself and that it will continue for the rest of my life.

I strive for good, I fail alot but I am willing to keep trying.

I also love these changes that keep happening within me.

It would be so much easier to just keep disliking these people that are mean.  The hard part is seeing through all of that.  I waiver, go back and forth, somedays I cannot control how angry I am at them.  I wonder if there way is right and I'm just a sucker.

I don't think I am wrong.  I think striving to be generous, empathetic, kind, respectful is the change I want and what I want my children to learn.   The hard part......modeling the behaviour even when emotionally you are not feeling generous, empathetic or kind.

Dang emotions...ugh.