I woke this morning feeling the humdrum of life. It's winter break which means the children do not have school and it is very cold outside with wind chill warnings. I grabbed my coffee sat down at the computer and read blogs, facebook and twitter all the while thinking of how much time I can waste while sitting here.
I want to scrapbook, journal, update baby books, take my children on adventures, plan games and activities and here I sit. I usually give myself a half hour to an hour in the morning to enjoy my coffee while it's quiet and calm in the house. The children are just starting to wake so the loud chaos has not arrived yet....but it will be here soon.
Then I realized I can still give myself that half hour or hour on the computer with my coffee and the quiet.
But...why not fill my brain up with more than social networking.
Why not read blogs that encourage, speak Truth, and help me start the day with great perspective?
Why not give myself permission to start my day the way I need to instead of feeling guilty for taking time for me.
I always feel like I never give enough to my family yet I know in practical terms I give MORE than enough. This is where the living with intention will make that difference. I may be here in physical self but I want to be here, really be here, my brain and all.
Balance..... it's about me and them. I am part of the picture. I am an individual that needs refreshing just like the dependents I care for. For so long I just looked at us all as one big unit but I am slowly starting to see the individual parts.
Tonight I get to do something I have never done before. It's not anything huge but to me it is an activity that gives me great joy and lets me leave a legacy for my children. I am scrapbooking at a friend's house. I have NEVER done this. I usually sit alone in my office with my tea, music and candle. Tonight I am giving myself permission to not feel guilty Daddy has to put all the children to bed by himself after a long day at work. Tonight I will enjoy this time and come home refreshed and encouraged.
We all need to escape once in a while. Give yourself permission to do so.
6 comments:
Love this post. Happy that you took time ti get away. Balance is so hard isn't it?! I think intentional makes all the difference. Not more time, just more focused time with our families.
Hope it warms up soon there, we're still freezing in the 30's-50's here. Can't imagine it being any colder.
I agree. Enjoy your "you" time.
Really great post! I have been wanting to live more intentionally, but find that I allow myself to get sucked into the computer too often. Thanks for the reminder that doing it in moderation is just fine. Now...if I could just get to where I'm using it in moderation, that would be great. ;)
I can't even tell you how many mothers I have spoken with (at different ages and with 1 or 9 children!) and how the word GUILT is associated with their life.
What is that? I suffer from it daily, it wreaks havoc on our characters...
Good for you. Allowing yourself to enjoy something solely for YOU (although you're probably scrapbooking your kids' lives!) is not a crime!
Consider it a mental/creative/friendship-growing/I-will-miss-and-appreciate-my-husband-more opportunity!
That 1/2 hour in the morning is priceless! Missing it for me is like forgetting to put my bra on...everyone is just happier if I take the time to do it.
Let go of the guilt, you give better of yourself if you feel like your getting attention too :)
Great post and so glad to be able to finally have a min, even if it's 3am, to sit and enjoy your blog again.
Thank you for all of your encouragements, you may think they do not mean anything but sometimes that's all that keeps me going.
Thank you for letting God use you in my life over a blog.
Please continue to keep us in your prayers.
Kee
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