I will not share why I'm cranky but I will say out of every tough spot we go through I learn. I think this last time I really listened and followed what I was supposed to do. It was not easy but I did it and I feel very blessed with the changes I am seeing.
BUT now...I have another issue.
PARENTING!!
Seriously...this is the hardest job in the world. I thought when my child was old enough for school that parenting would get a little less stressful and more fun. Afterall...a school age child can talk and let you know their wants and needs and not grunt.
I was so wrong...they still grunt! They grunt and growl and hate the world at the sweet young age of 7!!
Then I start to hate the world and what the world is doing to us and so on and so on.
As a wise woman once told me we cannot let fear grip us. Here is the problem......I am letting it grip me and reacting in a way that is just not helping our situation.
Maybe I'm having such difficulty parenting my 7 year old because I am still dealing with the grunts of a toddler and the crazy antics and chaos of two 3 year olds?
I am realizing I do not give myself enough grace. I get down on my parenting skills and then I stay down then I start to growl.
I look at many women and see these great Mothers that have so much patience and wish I could be like them. Then I realize that God made me who I am for a reason. He put these road blocks up so I could conquer them with His help. When I get back to the authentic ME I get back to God. I get grounded once again, I dig in my heels and I'm ready for the next hit.
This week I learned SO much about parenting and it will take a very long time for it all to sink in. BUT....the fact of the matter is the information has been passed on and it's stored up in my very stressed out brain. And when the situation arises where I feel lost and hopeless that bit of info is going to flash in front of me like a bright neon sign.
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