Battles Of The Mind

I am having an inner struggle right now.

I know I am a good person but I also know I fail sometimes at trying to be good.

Do you have that one person in your life that can make you feel like you'll never be enough? You will never dress good enough, never say anything right and you will never be in their league? {not that it matters in the big picture but I think you know what I mean}

How do you deal with it?

Do you avoid this person, do you confront them that they are a just a human being like you? Knock them down a little.

Do you try to be like them? Try not to be yourself?

Do you worry about everything, your clothes, your hair, your body size, your mothering when you are in the same space as this person?

Am I the only one that has someone in their life that intimidates them?

I have been trying for many years now to deal with it all. I feel like I am almost there but then something happens or something is said...not even by this person but by someone mentioning their name and I fall back a few steps.

I start to hear the lies, the deceit...all the stuff I work so hard to pass over.

I know who I am...

I know in who I trust....

But to give full control is sooooo hard and I have yet to get there.

14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,

15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.

16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.

17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
Ephesians 6:14-18