4 days
Till Daddy joins us permanently.
Now remember this is not including days he is already home so it's today and 3 days next week then we go to him, watch the graduation and then back home next Saturday...good timing because Sunday is Mother's Day and it will be nice to have him home for that special day.
He is off for one week before he starts his job full time so at least it gives us a little time to readjust somewhat. I know it will take months to get into the full swing but I am looking forward to the change yet somewhat scared out of my mind still
When I tell people he will be home by next weekend most say "Wow, that went fast!"
{Insert vicious glare on my face and thoughts of wanting to strangle this person...oh yeah..that's right you don't live with me and these are not your four children that you parented 24/7 by yourself for the last 17 weeks..it was me...hardy har har.}
But seriously????? Fast??? I think that is rather insensitive to what I went through...and trust me it was much more than just getting the kids a drink or fixing their lunch.
I am sure both my husband and I went through changes that have changed us. My views have changed and I now have lots of damage control to do on myself (yup still stuck on how sucky a Mother I was for the past four months...can I fix the damage I did to my kids?).
I know my husband has changed in so many ways I can't count them. I am excited for him but not so much for myself. I feel like I back slid all the repair I have worked on in the past. When I can relax in my parenting and not always have to be "on" we'll see if my heart stops beating so fast all the time and if I can lay down without being tense.
First on the list is a doctors appointment for myself. I have felt alot of the stress I dealt with physically and I want some things checked out. If that is all okay then I'll try to destress the brain a bit and I know exactly what I need for that.
Thanks again for following this journey with me and supporting me through your comments, offers for playdates and encouragement. Though I hear alot how I am "super mom" please know I am FAR from that and don't feel that way at all. But those of you that just looked at me and nodded your head in agreement when I let loose my anxieties....you are the ones that helped me hold it together.
Thank you.
Now remember this is not including days he is already home so it's today and 3 days next week then we go to him, watch the graduation and then back home next Saturday...good timing because Sunday is Mother's Day and it will be nice to have him home for that special day.
He is off for one week before he starts his job full time so at least it gives us a little time to readjust somewhat. I know it will take months to get into the full swing but I am looking forward to the change yet somewhat scared out of my mind still
When I tell people he will be home by next weekend most say "Wow, that went fast!"
{Insert vicious glare on my face and thoughts of wanting to strangle this person...oh yeah..that's right you don't live with me and these are not your four children that you parented 24/7 by yourself for the last 17 weeks..it was me...hardy har har.}
But seriously????? Fast??? I think that is rather insensitive to what I went through...and trust me it was much more than just getting the kids a drink or fixing their lunch.
I am sure both my husband and I went through changes that have changed us. My views have changed and I now have lots of damage control to do on myself (yup still stuck on how sucky a Mother I was for the past four months...can I fix the damage I did to my kids?).
I know my husband has changed in so many ways I can't count them. I am excited for him but not so much for myself. I feel like I back slid all the repair I have worked on in the past. When I can relax in my parenting and not always have to be "on" we'll see if my heart stops beating so fast all the time and if I can lay down without being tense.
First on the list is a doctors appointment for myself. I have felt alot of the stress I dealt with physically and I want some things checked out. If that is all okay then I'll try to destress the brain a bit and I know exactly what I need for that.
Thanks again for following this journey with me and supporting me through your comments, offers for playdates and encouragement. Though I hear alot how I am "super mom" please know I am FAR from that and don't feel that way at all. But those of you that just looked at me and nodded your head in agreement when I let loose my anxieties....you are the ones that helped me hold it together.
Thank you.
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