Where My Thoughts Are Lately

So I cannot stop thinking of baby Stellan.

Now, this may seem weird to some of you, especially those that do not blog, BUT it doesn't to me. When you read people's blogs everyday you get into their world and sometimes it's quite interesting. Most of the blogs I read are fellow Mom's and therefore I immediately have a connection with the writer. MckMama and I have alot of similarities in our lives (with the exception she gets over 1000 comments a post..lol) which I guess peaks my interest with her.

But Stellan...he is a baby, a 5 month old baby and a boy. He and Gage are a week apart in age. I experienced nothing MckMama did with her pregnancy and could never understand what she went through but I do know that people prayed....alot of people prayed and that little boy was born healthy.

This little guy has been in my mind for the past 24 hours. I wonder how he is doing and wait for each update from his Mom. I squeeze Gage that extra bit harder and kiss him a little bit more, why? I don't know all the reasons but I do know that I am so thankful I have him. I wonder how her husband and other children are holding out? I know what it is like to be with the sick child while the other's want you and just don't understand why you can't be there. I also know what it's like to reach out and let people help you in some way...I have a hard time doing that. So I think of them alot, the whole family.

As for Stellan's Mommy...I think she is a woman of huge strength BUT we all know how sometimes that strength is pushed to the limit and we fall. She understands much more than I with her faith. Right now she is teaching me things that I am not sure I completely understand.