Accepting With Gratitude

I have had a real blessed day.


No, seriously, it's been amazing and then I picked up my children from school and my oldest son has a fever and konks out on the sofa.

Did I mention he is 80 some lbs so I can't carry him anymore without seriously injuring my back?

I finally got him upstairs and put him in my bed.....

....this is while the baby is FREAKING out for some reason....

.....bottle maybe, oh yeah did I mention baby seems to want to eat every 2 hours again

...umm...growth spurt....

...... AND the twins are laying on each other in Sam's bed watching Strawberry Shortcake on the

portable DVD player which they hooked up and turned on by themselves while I was dealing

with a sick 6 yr old and screaming baby.

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And yet through all this I am bestowed this award...

Carrie from Martin Manor Happenings emailed me today and let me know she though I deserved this award...after reading the above are you ready to change your mind? ;)

But seriously, this truly has been a day with huge blessings sent my way and Carrie's sweet gesture topped it off BUT in typical fashion with my life it all came crashing down very quickly.

Fevers scare me, especially with children and my oldest son has not been well since last week. Tonight he has soaked my bed with sweat and he is moaning and groaning and this is all with Motrin in him. I checked him before I came down and I think the fever broke because he is alot cooler. I tried to get another temp but I can't get the thermometer in his mouth..he fights me.

I did have a good cry though after I talked to my husband for the 3rd time...and then I thought of Stellan (MckMama had a traumatic afternoon via twitter) who is struggling more then he has been. There has been some good things happen and some bad things and last I read on twitter MckMama was taking a break and trying not to lose it. Man..I would have lost it days ago, that is one strong women.

My point is, I feel like I have no reason to be "losing it", seriously my child has a fever, not serious problems, my child is in my bed, not in a hospital bed unable to come home, my child probably has the flu and I am being a big baby worrying about it.

But to be honest it's just the fact that I am alone to deal with this, the sick fevered child, crying baby and two 3 yr olds that could wake up at any moment crying for me and I can't go to them right away because I may be helping a child while he gets sick or feeding a baby. It sucks that I can't give them what they need right now but at least there is an end in sight. That end is why I don't feel like I should be such a baby myself about this...but hey we all break at times and I guess tonight was my turn to shed some tears.

I will get to passing on the Mom Of The Year award as soon as my head stops spinning, after I hit publish I am zonking out till one of the children wake me with some need they have.

I was also given this award again by Gayle (my fellow cold weathered friend in Alaska) from The White House.
And I know she totally understands why I am just posting about it now because she has more kids than I do!

Thank you Gayle for thinking of me and I'll get to handing it out on my end soon very soon.