Though I enjoyed the comments you all left in the last post I just want to clarify something with you all. Yes I did make it through the week but I never once mentioned that I was a good Mom.
At the moment I am sweating from gathering every single toy in our home from all three floors and putting them in our storage room. I am tired of the excess and it does nothing for the kids but make them whiny and complain. I am officially taking the twins soothers away during the day (if and when they have a nap) and once I have enough time I am going through the toys and cutting down to 1/4 of what is in that room.
I am angry at the moment (at myself) for losing my cool with my children. Trust me it happens more than you think. I could have let your comments be but I feel far from "amazing" or that "it was a job well done". I am not happy nor are my children at the moment because scary Mommy came out.
Yet I do feel somewhat justified in losing my cool. The twins stopped being whiny and the oldest is actually playing with a toy.
I don't think it's wrong that I expect to be respected. I respect them everyday by answering their requests, clothing, feeding and keeping them safe. I tell them I love them and hug and kiss them. I don't think it's wrong that I was feeling disrespected even if they are only 3 and 6 years old. I have seen them at their schools with their teachers and they know what it is to respect someone. I just feel like they think I am a big joke sometimes.
The twins are upstairs misbehaving once again (this has gone on for about 2 hours). Even as I took the toys away they were laughing and joking...and I know they do not fully understand what I am doing but I want to try to teach them when Mommy is not very proud of their behaviour that they need to shape up.
I guess I am just feeling slightly hypocritical if I let your comments soak in. I made mistakes today by losing my cool but I do not feel bad about taking the excess away. I do not want these children to be this way. I want them to understand how thankful they should be. So let's start all over.
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